We Bought a Zoo

Ok, not really. We didn't buy a Zoo. I saw that movie once and for some reason when I think of saying what I want to say, that comes to mind. Seriously though, we bought a mattress. No big deal. People do that. But this mattress is for my boy. My son. I don't know his name. I've never seen his face. I don't even know how old he is!

We've been given what's called a "soft referral" by our agency. There is one boy that our agency is trying to match us with. Our paperwork and his paperwork are both being processed by the Haitian government. And at some point they should hopefully come together for an official match. Until then, we know nothing about him. Well, not nothing... we know he's somewhere between the ages of 1 and 5. Not much to go off of. :)

It's an amazing experience to feel your love grow for a child you've never even met. So many similarities to what it was like before we met each of our other children. And I thought 9 months was a long time to wait!! It's been 18 months so far... now that's a long pregnancy! 

While we were settling into our new home I think I hit a bit of a nesting phase and bought matching sheets and bedding for our boys. Crazy. I know I'm crazy. Yes, it makes some days difficult seeing the empty bed and wondering how long it will really be before he comes home. Other days it makes me smile in wonderful anticipation.  It reminds me to continue preparing in any way I can for him. It also reminds me to pray for his relationships with his siblings as they prepare to welcome him into our family. Most of all though, it reminds me to pray for him and where he's at right now.

Now some of you might be wondering why only one child when we'd been desiring two. Currently there are no siblings within our criteria available at the orphanages our agency is partnered with. At first I was a bit surprised. I mean, we'd clearly stated that we felt God was calling us to two children. I still feel that way! We are over the moon for this little boy, no doubt about that. But our hearts are open and ready for whoever God has planned for our family. It may not all come together how I imagined it. But it will be even better when God puts our family together just as He desires. One boy for now. Another boy or girl later? Only God knows!